Unspoken words

Staying apart from him hurts!
External happiness, internal sadness.
Feign a smile all thr the day. Deadly solitude in the evenings kill.

Wonder IF with time -

I would stop being sensitive
Don’t miss loved ones
Don’t care to give a call 2-3 times a week as i do
Wouldn’t want to know if all is well
My ears wouldn’t long to hear that “I miss you”/ Is it being stoic, or plain human ?

Questions such as

Why am i doing this?
For whom are we staying apart?
Is it worth the sacrifices?
What brings me to this alien land away from the place where i love to be?  keep crossing my mind everyday. I know its all circumstantial and just a phase of life.

What scares me is i don’t want this phase to become my LIFE. I don’t want years to pass by saying “This time too shall pass”. I know time does pass but it changes the person you are!

Bullets-Brains, Fury-Fright, Havoc - Helpnessness

40 days is a long time for not updating my blog. Am back at U.S and I find time to write ! Strange as it may sound but can’t squeeze in 10 mins during my busy schedule @ Bangalore to post a few lines. So here I go a after a brief hiatus!